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2015 12 29 Gearing Up and Winding Down December 29, 2015

And here we are, gearing up for New Years, or are we winding down from Christmas? Six of one, and here’s your half dozen.

Looking back, I find that the year that was 2015 was a blinding blur. So much went on as we spun around the sun that it’s hard to believe we could stuff it all inside 365 glorious days on this big blue spinning marble we call home.

And here we are, T-Minus three days and counting. Or is it just two?

I haven’t written as much this past year or so, and I’m blaming it on too much school work. Actually though, I’m pretty sure that isn’t the whole reason. I lack a lot of ambition that I had a couple years ago. I know it’s probably due to my health, but that just seems like I’m making up an excuse for my laziness. I have been writing quite a bit for school assignments, but compared to a few years ago, I’m not writing anywhere near what I was. I have though been picking up my guitars more as of late, and even played a little personal rendition of a Christmas song at our last Sunday night’s writers meeting back on the 20th of December. I was a little nervous, but strummed my way through it. I even sang like only a goat can. I did up a version of Silent Night for the other members of my writer’s group, and actually had a good time doing it. I’d put it on YouTube, but I’m afraid with so many views, it might completely crash the internet

Hahahaha! grin.

I’m still listening to mp3 Christmas movies on my iTouch, and will until New Years day. It’s become a yearly ritual for me, and when you add in a few holiday music albums into the mix, how can a goat go wrong? I actually listened to quite a few movies this season without description. No narrator telling you what’s going on. Just your good old imagination filling in the empty slots of movie stuff. I find that if I’m able to get into the movie after five minutes, I’ll stay with it, even though it isn’t described. The first movie I ever listened to with description on my iTouch was War Horse back in spring 2014. I became instantly addicted to the format and fell back in love with movies. It’s fair to say that I painstakingly fell away from watching movies after 2010, except for a few that I watched with my wife.

By the way, she is a fabulous movie narrator, but with the excessive pausing and playing with the remote control, she could burn through a fresh pair of AA batteries in a couple weeks.

I think she misses not describing movies and other shows to me, but although I hate to say it, having a scripted movie narrator tell you what’s going on is a huge difference.

One thing I really seem to enjoy is being able to listen to a described movie that I previously watched back when my eyes worked. It’s actually almost like watching the movie for the first time, especially when it’s narrated by someone from Great Britain. They use so many different terms for describing things that it’s rather enjoyable to the point of being almost like a learning experience from across the pond.

And here we are again, this 29th day of December, 2015. Where on earth did the time go? How do the days move around us so fast? Didn’t the geese just come back north a few weeks ago, or was that those same gooses I just heard heading their tail feathers back south? I’m sure they got it right, no matter what we think, right?

As we head towards 2016, I’m reminded that I’m just about ¼ the way towards my associate’s degree, which means that I’m closing in on a 2032 graduation date. Give or take a decade or two. Grin
It’s a good thing I’m in no hurry. I’ll try to beat my grandson, as he makes his way towards his high school diploma.

He’s turning 10 this April.

I better get my goat hooves moving, ay?

I hope you all had a marvelous Christmas and that the spirit of the season flickered its flame deep within your hearts. I’d also like to wish you all the best as we slide on into 2016. May this New Year give you every opportunity to grab hold of something good, whether it’s something you work towards, or an amazing surprise that just happens to fall into your lap. With a little effort, it usually works out, and with a lot of effort, there’s just no telling what can happen.

Thanks for stopping by my blog this past year. I appreciate all your comments and look forward to piling on even more goaticious tales of Surviving.

Take care and God bless you all.



2015 01 01 And Away We Go January 1, 2015

And away we go with another brand new 365! As I write this on day one, I’m wondering where 2014 went. I’m wondering how the time went by so fast from March to December. I’m wondering if I had all the chocolate back that I ate during the course of the year, would my fridge be big enough to handle it all. I’m wondering how some of the folks I met during the course of the year seem like old friends now. I’m wondering, and yes, I’ll probably wonder even more.

2014 was a year filled with a surge of emotions unlike any that I have ever felt. It was filled with a bevy of first times, and through them all, I emerged with a sense of accomplishment, once again, like I never experienced before. Surrounded by new places, new voices, new obstacles, new challenges and new opportunities, I have realized that so many of the previous impossibilities, or things that I previously categorized as impossible, came to fruition and surrounded me with a determination, get ready for it, unlike any I have ever come across.

College? Me? You must have me confused with someone else. And there I go again, cutting myself short on my accomplishments. Fact is, I did make it through my first semester of community college. I entered through the double doors, walked the halls, took my seat and did the work as best I could. I’m still pinching myself, and each time, it still remains as the truth.

As I stated earlier in this post, I have been met head on in 2014 with a handful of obstacles. It’s a good feeling when you can turn the obstacles into opportunities, or should I say, when you realize that each obstacle includes an opportunity. So much work can turn itself into so much reward, and with each instance, a new piece of me peeks through the brambles to catch a glimpse of something amazing and incredible. I am blessed with each obstacle, with each opportunity and with each result.

2014 also presented me with another familiar obstacle. I was diagnosed with another meningioma in late September, and have been receiving radiation treatments since December 15th. My first diagnosed meningioma, “brain tumor”, was back in 2013, and was able to be removed with a craniotomy. I received some orbital reconstruction as part of the process, and came through with flying colors. Unfortunately, this time the tumor can not be removed with the same procedure, as it is wrapped around the carotid artery, which supplies a portion of my brain with blood. Some, or most of the tumor could be removed with surgery and more major reconstruction, but without being able to remove it all, it would still be there, growing and growing, taking up space and not paying any rent. The radiation treatments this time around are filled with question marks, as these types of tumors don’t always react positively to the treatments. I am through 11 rounds after yesterday and have 16 more to go in the next three or so weeks.

I keep telling myself that this is just another bump in the road. I tell myself that it’s no big deal, and I’ll come through ok. Oh yes, I think about the negative side a lot, but realize that focusing on the variables, which usually includes a crap load of speculation, doesn’t do me a bit of good, so, I try to veer away from that way of thinking.

With this recent episode, and with my wife’s recent Thanksgiving Day knee injury, we have received much prayers, love and support. It’s so comforting to know that there are those who turn up when you’re up against it. I thank you all from the bottom of my billy goat heart.

I’m moving on into 2015 with an optimism that helps me get through times like these. I head into the New Year with an ever growing faith. I head into the unknown with hope, optimism and love from above and all around. Through it all, I am blessed to have family, friends and God to pick me up and carry me through one more ordeal in my life. Without them, well, it would sure be a lot harder.

2015 holds a year full of possibilities. The New Year holds those rewards that can only be achieved with hard work, determination and confidence of self. 2015 is, after all, all that we have, right here, right now.

I’m still writing some, although I’ve not written much since the fall semester began. I’m up to chapter 24 in my new book, and have been thinking heavily about where the story may take me. I’m sure it will be just as good a journey as it has been thus far.

I’m also going to try and head into more college courses, and hopefully this recent health situation won’t create too much of a distraction.

I’ll end here by wishing you all the best through this brand new year. I hope that you’re all able to seize each opportunity with optimism and courage. With those two ingredients, amazing things can happen. Take it from me.

God bless you all and I’ll be thinking of ya’s.